Tuesday, August 21, 2018

Welcome to the Stanley Hotel....maybe!


Welcome to the Stanley Hotel
Do your best to enjoy your stay…..it’s up to you, because we won’t be helping.




Monday, August 20, 2018


An Open Letter to the Current Owners of the Stanley Hotel:

My family and I recently stayed at the Stanley Hotel in Estes Park, Colorado.  We planned this trip months in advance, coordinating a family vacation, a concert we wanted to see, and a visit to the notorious inspiration for a work by one of my husband’s favorite authors.

For those of you who are unfamiliar with the location, it is in Estes Park, Colorado, a popular tourist destination just on the edge of the Rocky Mountains, approximately 90 minutes north-west of Denver.  It is famous primarily for being the literary inspiration for Stephen King’s, The Shining.  Although the Stanley Kubrick adaptation was not, in fact, filmed on location, the later tv miniseries was.  It is rumored to be haunted, and there are hundreds of reports of paranormal experiences, including some decidedly odd ones revolving around celebrities who have stayed there.  The hotel is actually part of a larger historical district, with multiple buildings, an amphitheatre, a sculpture garden, and several modern structures adding to the available rooms to let.

Imagine my chagrin when, almost immediately upon arriving at the hotel, everything was disorganized, confusing, inconvenient, and frustrating.  Below is a rough timeline of our first night at the hotel, as well as a laundry list (ha…) of other problems.

I.     Arrival at the hotel
a.       We could not figure out where to pull up to offload our luggage and check in.  There were no signs explaining where we were supposed to go.
b.      There was no valet.
c.       We ended up parking in front of the Lodge, a separate structure, and going in there trying to find out where to go. We were directed to another entrance (the awning on the side of the main Hotel)
d.      Once going in this entrance, we were again directed to another location – down the hall, up the steps, turn left, turn right, there’s the registration desk.  I got hopelessly lost.
e.       Once we finally arrived at the registration desk, we had to wait between 15 and 20 minutes just to get someone to talk to us.  Because of the confusion on where to park, where to put our luggage, and so on, I didn’t have my ID on me, so I had to send one of my children back out to the car to get my bag.  I had no idea how to get back to the car at this point.  That led to a further delay, while we waited for her to return.
f.        Once we got our registration taken care of, I asked for a bellman to assist with luggage.  The people at the desk seemed baffled by this idea…and sort of fumbled around.  The young lady who checked us in then made a call to get us assistance.  There was a gentleman behind the desk as well, Kyle, who ended up taking us to our room and helping us figure out how to get our luggage from the car to our room.  Kyle was awesome.  He also seemed a little befuddled, and inefficient, but he was willing and capable and did his best to help us.
g.       At first Kyle was going to lead us to the room just so we could find it.  There were NO SIGNS to direct us where to go.  The young lady behind the registration desk popped out the side-door from registration to interrupt us as we were walking away, to rather snarkily say, “um, someone is coming to help you get your bags,” clearly annoyed that we were walking away.  I had to stand by registration for another 10 to 15 minutes until the bellman arrived…then the bellman didn’t know what to do.  Kyle ended up helping us with our luggage.  The bellman didn’t understand where our car was, or how to get our luggage from the car to our room.
h.      When we arrive at our room, the conditions of it were disappointing. However, I will cover that in a later section dealing with the conditions of the hotel.                 
i.         Upon checking in, I was given 2 photocopied sheets – 1 was a short description of the hotel and what times various things occurred.  The second was a map of the main floor.  Both were on cheap quality paper, and had obviously been photocopied from copies so many times they were nearly illegible.  I felt like I was being handed a mimeograph spelling list circa 1979. 
j.         Bedding – we had booked the Heritage Suite, room 104, because there were 4 of us – 2 adults, 1 - 18 year old, 1 - 11 year old.  When we tried to set up the pull-out, there was no bedding on it.  We searched the room, and found a single pillow, only.  No sheets or blankets. 
                                                               i.      My stepdaughter called down to the front desk to request bedding. The desk staff appear confused, again, and said they were out of blankets (?????) but would see what they could do.  This was around 11:00pm.
                                                             ii.      Around 12:15am, I called down again, saying we still hadn’t received our bedding.  My kids were exhausted and wanted to go to bed.  The person on the desk said she had just come on duty a short while before and was unaware of a request for bedding.  She said she would call them and try to get it for us.
                                                           iii.      Around 12:50am, I walked down to the desk personally, and spoke with the young woman on staff.  She was the same one I had spoken with on the phone at 12:15am, and she again said she wasn’t there when the first call came, and she had already called housekeeping asking for the bedding, and she implied there was nothing more she could do.  I insisted that I needed to know who else to call to get us some bedding. She made another call and said someone was coming.
                                                           iv.      Around 1:10am, someone from maintenance arrived and brought us a stack of 5 or so king size sheets, and a single pillow.  No blanket, no fitted sheet.  The gentleman said he couldn’t find any blankets so he gave us multiple sheets instead. 
                                                             v.      We ended up taking the bed spread off the king size bed and giving it to the girls on the pull-out.  They got to bed around 1:45am.   We lost nearly 3 hours they could have been sleeping.
      II.  Conditions at the Hotel.  Below I will list all of the items in the Stanley Hotel which were sub-par, frightening, dangerous, or just embarrassing.
a.       Heritage Suite, room 104:
                                                               i.      Shower curtain – the bathtub was tiny, and there was a single, cheap vinyl shower curtain on a straight rod.  Whenever you showered, the curtain stuck to your body.
                                                             ii.      Water – in the shower, the water would go hot, then cold, then hot, then cold.
                                                           iii.      Toilet – the toilet would not flush unless you held the handle down.  Then it would run constantly until you manually lifted the handle.
                                                           iv.      Window in the bathroom – there was a small window in the bathroom, with twin shutters to provide privacy. Inside those shutters, the window frame was grimy, and looked as if it had not been scrubbed or painted in years.  It was also the ONLY place in the entire bathroom to set anything down, such as a toothbrush, toothpaste, etc.
                                                             v.      There were enough towels for 2 people only.   I called down for additional towels our first night, and they never arrived.
                                                           vi.      The large “sitting-room” area of the room contained only a small desk, a single chair, a small coffee table, and the pull-out couch.  There is a dark, dead-end hallway leading to a closet.  There was nowhere to sit if you had the couch pulled out into a bed except the single chair at the desk.  There was nowhere to sit down together to eat a meal, despite having a full kitchen with stove, microwave, fridge.
                                                          vii.      The kitchen floor and counters are all horribly off-plumb.  Anything round set down on the counter immediately and violently rolls off and onto the floor, and if running away in terror.
                                                        viii.      The cupboards were filled with an unpredictable variety of glassware, dinnerware, and cutlery.  There was 1 spoon – a serving spoon.  There were no paper towels.  There was NO TRASH CAN anywhere in the kitchen or sitting area.  The closest trash can was a small one right next to the entrance to the suite, and then one other small one in the bathroom, at the opposite end of the suite.  We requested a trash can (and those missing towels) because we had a leak in one or our coolers on the way to Estes Park and had a bunch of spoiled food.  Housekeeping brought us a black trash bag.  I hung it from the washing machine, held up by tucking it under the top lid.
                                                           ix.      The coffee service offered only pre-packaged kits of of powdered creamer, an anemic sugar packet, a thin plastic stirrer straw, and a paper napkin roughly the consistency of gift-bag tissue paper.
                                                             x.      Washer and Dryer in the kitchen area were sitting in open view.  This is minor, but it would be nice to be able to close some louvers or something to hide these away.
                                                           xi.      Windows – all of the very large windows in the suite opened easily.  There were no screens.  We were on the ground floor.  Tours passed just outside our windows through the gazebo – people could easily climb right into our room.  In fact, at one point while we were out walking around, my 11 year old daughter climbed INTO the room from the outside through the window we had left open, in order to scare my husband, who was still in the room.  Later my stepdaughter climbed OUT the window in order to knock on the bathroom window from outside to scare her sister. 
                                                          xii.      Pull-out couch – I don’t even know where to start.  It was old.  It was worn.  It had an approximately 3” vertical cut in the back cushions, clearly made with a knife of some sort.  The edges were frayed, as if it had been there a long time.  The mattress had no mattress pad on it.  The mattress was thin and worn.  The couch was pink. 
                                                        xiii.      Air conditioner –The entire main hotel has no air conditioning.  This is in large part why having no screens is so disturbing.  We were aware of the lack of AC prior to making the reservation.  However, our room (and at least 1 other in our area) had a stand-alone air conditioner, connected to the window through a vent pipe.   The one we had malfunctioned on our 3rd day in the room, and had to be repaired, and then replaced the following day.  It worked well…but frankly looked very jury-rigged and unprofessional.  In addition, the window the vent went out could not be locked – the vent went through a wooden vent-plate that blocked out the rest of the open window, but there was no block in place to prevent the window from being opened the rest of the way allowing someone access to the room from outside.
b.      The rest of the hotel:
                                                               i.      Fire Escapes:  While wandering the hotel late the first night, my husband and I discovered the door to the front of the hotel on the 3rd floor open to what appeared to be a balcony.  I was excited to check it out, so went outside.  It wasn’t a balcony, but a fire escape, with no railing around the opening for the ladder/stairs down.  My foot encountered open air, and I caught myself from falling by grabbing the nearby railing.  I almost fell 3 stories through a metal fire escape. 
                                                             ii.      Screens – there appear to be no screens anywhere in the hotel.  I remember looking up while eating on the patio and noticing windows opening on the 4th floor, and I could clearly see the person inside wave to someone near me on the ground.  Someone could easily fall out those windows and get seriously injured.
                                                           iii.      Housekeeping – Due to our very late night upon check-in when we didn’t have bedding until after 1:00am, we were not up for housekeeping to clean our room the next morning.  They never returned later to do it.  They never come the next day at all.  The third day they came when we were in the room, and we asked them just for towels and washcloths.  They left us 3 towels, 2 washcloths, and a half dozen hand towels.  There were CLEARLY 4 OF US!
1.       No one on the housekeeping staff spoke ANY English. Not any at all.  They were completely unable to communicate with us, and at one point one of the housekeeping staff left to find someone who could translate for them. 
2.       On the other hand, housekeeping appear to be the only people who worked at the hotel who enjoyed their job.
                                                           iv.      Staff –Most of those who worked at the hotel, with the exception of housekeeping and possibly some of the spirit tour guides, appeared to hate their jobs.  They never seemed happy, they never wanted to help you, they always gave you the impression that you were putting them out if you asked for anything.  This included front desk help, wait staff, bartenders.
1.       Added thought – the staff of the café on the lower level were quite friendly.  Of course, for $6 for a 20oz Mocha with an extra shot of espresso, they BETTER act happy.
                                                             v.      The steps that led from the heritage suite corridor to the back of the hotel are rotting.  You can flake the wood off with a fingernail.  They visibly bow when you step on them.
                                                           vi.      Hedge Maze – the hedge maze was an embarrassment.  I understand from speaking with someone on staff that there was a former groundskeeper who planted items which the elk love to eat, and that the new groundskeeper is working to repair it.  I find it amazing that a hotel of this callibre would allow such a disaster to take place, especially after the amount of money that went into creating the maze to begin with.
1.       The initial design for the hedge maze is so tiny.  I felt claustrophobic when I walked through it.  Why on earth did you invest that much money, and block off the front of the hotel, for something so undersized?  It very much feels like someone said “build a hedge maze, but don’t spend too much.”
                                                          vii.      Signage – There are not nearly enough signs around the property directing people where they need to go for particular things.  You just have to wander around to find things, and being a historical structure/site, it is not at all intuitive.
                                                        viii.      Ice Machine – there is one ice machine in the entire hotel, on the 3rd floor in the one wing.  It’s a long walk, especially with the altitude.
1.       There are NO SIGNS to help you find it.
                                                           ix.      Room number plaques – at least 3 room number plaques were missing, and the room number was written on the torn wallpaper in pencil: 217, 401, and some room on the 3rd floor. 
                                                             x.      Veranda – the iconic main veranda at the front of the Stanley is obviously a main gathering place.  However, there were a lot of problems with it:
1.       The wicker-esque furniture was often missing cushions.
2.       The “bar” outside was never staffed.
3.       The area was never bussed (There were always empty glasses and cups sitting around).
4.       The ice-water decanter was usually empty.  In 5 days I found it containing water once.
5.       The area was often overrun with spirit tour clients, making it impossible for guests staying at the hotel to enjoy the scenery or just sit and relax.
6.       One of the 2 carriage lights bracketing the front entrance was broken – Again, by talking to some of the staff I discovered that a contractor broke it during the off season, and there was a delay in getting it replaced.  This also appears to be a case of someone not caring to spend the money to expedite the repair.  I know due to the historical nature of the structure there are limitations of materials allowed, manufacturing process allowed, and so on.  However, I would think such a prominent fixture would be a high priority. 
7.       There were clearly openings in the ceiling for 2 smaller chandeliers to hang on the veranda.  The chandeliers are gone, and the holes are sitting there open, with visible wires.
8.       There are hooks to hang planters between the pillars, and no planters hanging there.  I understand not wanting to obstruct the incredible view, but a couple of plants would really make the veranda more welcoming.  Since it’s almost impossible to truly enjoy the view with all of the kerfuffle of spirit tour participants coming and going and taking photos and being generally loud, a few plants can’t hurt the view much.
                                                           xi.      No Coffee Service – there is nowhere in the hotel to just grab a cup of coffee.  I have never been in a high-end hotel before and not had access to coffee service at all times on the main floor near registration.  Usually it includes infused water as well.  There is neither.  I seriously annoyed a waiter in the bar by taking up a table in order to get a cup of coffee.  I tried standing at the bar and got ignored.  I tried standing in the open bar area and flag down a waiter, and they ignored me.  I finally had to take a table in order to be served, and he was clearly annoyed that he wasn’t going to get a solid tip out of the transaction. 
                                                          xii.      No room service – there is no room service at all.  Not even coffee.  I have never, ever, been in a high end hotel, including more than one historical structure, where you couldn’t arrange for coffee to be delivered to the room during normal business hours or at least during routine breakfast hours.
                                                        xiii.      Shuttle into town – when we were offloading our luggage, we saw a white van with lettering on it saying it was some sort of shuttle.  After we spent time in Estes Park the following day, I realized that it made a lot of sense to have a routine shuttle that allows hotel guests to go into Estes Park without taking their cars. However, I never saw that shuttle again, no one mentioned it being available, and I never saw any signs or alerts showing how one could catch it. 
III.    Local Opinions:  While visiting Estes Park, I took the time to talk to some of the locals about the hotel and its operating conditions.  A few facts became clear.  The opinions of the local residents are that:
a.       The current owners are the hotel are extremely wealthy, have no interest in the historical or aesthetic value of the property, and are using it to generate as much revenue as possible as quickly as possible.
b.      It is only a matter of time before someone is seriously injured on the property due to the poor maintenance, unsafe conditions, and general lack of concern for employees’ and guests’ safety.
c.       The owners do not pay a living wage; the cost of living near Estes Park is very high, and those who work at the hotel cannot afford to live nearby.
d.      There are dormitories on-site, but they are unpleasant in some vague way.  No one would say more than, well, there ARE dorms….” In a very uncomfortable tone of voice.  I read this as, they are unpleasant to live in, possibly crowded or dirty?  No air conditioning?  I don’t know.  However, the local opinion is clearly that they are not a nice place to live.
e.       They have a very high turn-over of staff.  Other than spirit tour guides, of those I asked, I didn’t meet a single person who had worked there for more than 3 months. 
f.        It is only a matter of time before the place has a significant fire.  I didn’t find out from this one person I spoke with why she felt that way…but she clearly felt that the place was a firetrap.  I sensed that was one reason she no longer worked there. 
g.       The different departments within the hotel do not get along.  I had instances where hospitality/management had difficulty dealing with housekeeping, the restaurant refused to talk to management, reservations does not communicate with hospitality. 
h.      Cascades, the restaurant, is overpriced, and the food is just bad.  I met 1 particular local who said she’d eaten there on 2 separate occasions, and both were terrible. 
i.         The owners would rather hire immigrants at sub-par wages than shell out the money to allow people to afford to live nearby, or provide adequate housing for nearby residents.
                                                               i.      n.b., the vast majority of the hotel staff I interacted with were non-native English speakers.  This includes hospitality, wait staff, bellmen, and housekeeping. 

What is the point of this long, obnoxious letter, do you ask?  I wish to ask, nay BEG, the current owners:  Sell the place to someone who cares for it.  Stop raping a beautiful, interesting, historical structure for cash.  Shut down one wing of the hotel for an entire season, and upgrade it.  Drop around $20Million to get the entire property upgraded, build decent housing for your staff, hire a crack hotel manager who has ultimate hiring power over all branches of the hotel complex.  Hire a new chef for the restaurant.  Buy only local produce, meat, toiletries, etc, and advertise that.  

Instead of doing constant, disruptive, spirit tours, offer classes in spirituality.  Install a day spa and offer massages, meditation rooms, and a Himalayan salt room.  Build a laundry facility on-site, so that you aren’t farming it out to an outside contractor who may or may not return bedding in a timely manner. 

Go back to the old skeleton keys.  Get rid of the digital ones.    Or, if you must use digital keys, use a skeleton key design.  It will add to the hotel’s cachet.  You WILL lose keys…but include in the reservation a deposit on the key, to be returned only upon the return of the key itself.  

Buy enough bedding to clothe every bed 3 times.  Have spare bedding in every room. 

Install a DVD player in every room and leave a copy of The Shining (both versions) in each room.  Talk to King or Kubrick about getting a version you can put the hotel name on, and leave a note on the box saying it is $20 to keep the movie.  Alternatively, upgrade your digital entertainment system to include streaming video, and have The Shining available to view at all times. 

Provide monogramed robes.  Put a tag on them saying they are Egyptian cotton, locally embroidered, and the guest is welcome to keep it for a charge of $150 per robe.  They will disappear.

Install a falconry.  Have classes. 

Teach archery.  Have hiking guides on-staff, with regular hiking tours.

Offer maps of local areas and local events.  Not ONCE did someone explain to me what was going on in Estes Park the weekend we were there.  I found out later it was a wine festival.

Fire.  Anyone.  Who. Isn’t. Helpful.    Make it EASY to order a drink, not a chore.

Give a good manager the hotel for 2 years, and a budget of $20 – 40 Million, and they will give you a gem that will be the envy of every big resort hotel for generations, and which will make you millions in profits.

On the off chance that he might actually have read this, I ask Mr. King to use whatever influence he might have to urge someone with a solid reputation in the real estate / hospitality industry to rip this property away from its current owners, before it is lost to us forever.   Go read the reviews on Google or Facebook.  The staff hate their jobs, the owners don't care, and a piece of history is being systematically raped to line someone's pockets.  

Friday, March 9, 2018

An Open Letter to the Meddling Kids of Parkland

Friday, March 9, 2018


Dear Meddling Kids,

Do you blame us?  We are your elders, the GenXers, the parents, grandparents, the Adults.  I'm 47, a mother of 2, a business owner.  I have tried, in my small, benign way, to be a force for good in this world.  I vote, I drive a hybrid, I refuse to own an assault rifle, I refuse to allow my children to use hate speech, or belittle those different from them.  I speak with friends and colleagues - even when it's uncomfortable - about issues on which we disagree.  I urge my children to seek out the meek, to stand up for the bullied.  I make that call when something doesn't feel right, despite knowing that the authorities hate people like us....it's always been nothing...so far.   I call people on their hate speech and microaggressions when I witness them, resulting in some seriously uncomfortable confrontations.

Do you blame us?  You, the youth of America, who are speaking up so eloquently and forcefully. You who are managing to stay above the fray and never reduce yourselves to feeding the trolls.  I know your names now - you are celebrities, of a sort.  I do not envy you that celebrity.  I DO envy you  your strength.  I never had it.  I came of age in a different time.  Yes, I marched against the first gulf war in 1991.  I spoke out in my limited and quiet way about injustice as I understood it in the world we live in.  I wept when I saw the hatred and the isolationism budding on the stunted tree of our democracy.  I listened to Green Day sing "American Idiot" and I nodded in agreement.

But I didn't DO anything about it.

I marched in January 2017, with several million others.  I continue to support local candidates whom I know personally who are running for office in the hopes of making positive change.  I try to stay informed about who is running for what, and I make calls, write letters, tweet, and send postcards.   I teach my kids about science, and responsibility, and urge them to reject hatred.

I do NOT want to make this about me.  I do NOT want to detract from the power and joy I see in your work.

I want you to know...I see you.  I support you.  I grieve with you.  I rage with you.  And I am ashamed.

Please, do what we could not...what we did not.  Lead us to a version of America I can be proud of again.  I have sought out each of you and followed you on Twitter.  I read what you post, I follow your links.  I want to respond, comment, retweet....but I fear you will see my activities and my responses and think, gee where was SHE when they lifted to assault rifle ban?  SHE is one of the ones who allowed this to happen.  Where was she when the Tea Party gained momentum and hijacked our democratic process?

And you'd be right.  We have failed you in so many ways.

You are our future - you are the ones who are going to build a world my girls can live in with pride and safety.  And if in any way at all I can help, I will try to do so.

I will march with you on March 24.  I have facilitated contact between local activists in my area and the teens organizing at the local high school.  I will donate, I will amplify.  And I will know it's still not enough.

But I will keep doing it.  I will shoulder the guilt, and leaven it with the wonder I feel when I watch you all soar.  I will cheer and cry, as I watch you change the world you were bequeathed and make it better.

You make ME want to be better.  And I thank you for it.

Monday, January 15, 2018

Lady On Fire and Hot Appendix - an evening at the local Urgent Care

A February Visit to the local Urgent Care


So. Last night I took my 10 year old daughter to the local After Hours Care. After spending 4 hours, on and off, trying to get through to our pediatrician all day, and receiving nothing but busy signals, or the outgoing "do not leave a message" announcement over lunch hour, my kid and her sore throat demanded a trip to the local Health Emporium for America's Healthcare Rejects. This is where people go who a) cannot afford to take off work to go to the doctor, b) have no doctor and rely on clinics and urgent cares, c) have state-funded medical as opposed to purchased health insurance, and d) people like me...moms who have a kid who is sick and just can't wait another day to try to get her into her overworked pediatrician.

We walk into a packed waiting room. Somewhere between 20 and 30 people, many of them miserable, sit in a large circle where they are forced to either stare at their phones, stare at each other, or try to wrangle tired, cranky, often sick children and convince them that they really DO want to sit still.

After waiting 5 minutes for an overworked nurse to appear at the little window and check me in and inform me it was a 2.5 to 3 hour wait, I quickly discover there was nowhere to sit. A kind family had 2 of their school age daughters share a chair so that I would have somewhere to sit. I thanked them and took my seat, and my daughter squatted on the floor next to the coffee table that floated in the middle of the room 5 feet away from the closest chair. (What is that table's purpose? It holds no magazines or books. It's too far away from anything to put a cup of coffee on, or a book....there are no child-sized chairs for the kids to pull up and maybe color....or heaven forbid, work on the homework they are neglecting while they sit for hours and wait to see the one overworked doctor who is on call tonight).

Next to me is the family who kindly provided me with a place to sit. Mom is exhausted looking, trying her best to keep it together while she waits yet another hour to get in to see someone for her abdominal pain and nausea. She assumes she has stomach flu. Her oldest, a10 year old daughter, goes to school with my kid, so they somewhat know each other. The girl is doing her best to help distract her baby brother, about 3 years old and one of THOSE kids - you know the ones. He’s happy in a frantic sort of way; sweet as pie, with a devilish gleam in his eye; bored to TEARS and so ready to DO something, and not afraid to unintelligibly share that with the room at large...and run around the room just out of reach of his traumatized mom in the process. The middle kid seemed almost resigned.

Across the way is the one healthy-looking woman, seemingly the only one there by herself. I can't help wondering at her presence - what could POSSIBLY be bad enough to warrant a trip to this hell-hole? She's well dressed (i.e., not in pajama pants) her hair isn't greasy and matted like she's been subsisting on cold medicine and bed rest for 3 days. She doesn't have a child dripping unidentifiable fluids from every orifice and whining about how BOOOORED they are. When she is the next one called in to see the doctor, I find myself gazing after her with a mixture of jealousy and insane hatred. How DARE she be unfettered and healthy-looking!!!

The manic 3 year old has now discovered my crocheting. Evidently it's Waiting Room Protocol to allow the 3-year-old to paw at my project, yank on my yarn, babble nonsense at me, then run screaming back to his mom after the 200th time she says DYLAN DYLAN GET BACK HERE DYLAN STOP TOUCHING THAT!!!

I guess I'll be washing this baby blanket twice. with disinfectant.

Next to Perfectly Healthy Woman is the Snoring Family: 3 women, all looking approximately alike. The youngest is taking up 2 chairs so that she can sit sideways and keep her iPhone 6 plugged in while she surfs the internet. She’s not the one snoring, but she looks like she might nod off at any time. She's wearing pajama pants. She's not the one who is sick. Grandma is sick. She's snoring.

The 3 year old's aunt and uncle walk in. From forcibly overheard conversations, it's clear Mom has called them to ask them to come help with the kids. I think, YES! They're going to take these poor bored kids away with them, get them some food (they're starving...it's 8 pm by now and they've been here since 5:30), maybe take them home and let them go to sleep. no. they scrunch up together and sit down. They decide to go to their car to see if there are any toys the boy can play with. The mom doesn’t have any toys in her car.

Wait. What? Who has 3 kids, one of them a 3 year old boy, and doesn't have a SINGLE toy in their own car?


The 10 year old offers to go look. She comes back with a ...

toy xylophone.

CLANG CLANG BANG CLACK CLANG GIGGLE!!!!

oh. my. god.

The temperature in here is by now approximately that of molten lava. Too many people, most of them running fevers and sniffling, 2 or 3 of us suffering the periodic joy of hot flashes.....

They take the toy away. They find a matchbox car. VROOOOOM

Meanwhile....two other things are happening all this time. In the middle of the room, kneeling at the little table, my daughter is playing Pokemon Go on my cell phone. The 7 or 8 year old son of another family is watching. and helping. He leeeaaannns in closer....she leans a little away. He reeaacchhhes over her shoulder to touch the screen....she scoots over a little more. Every time I look up, she's moved down a little further along the table. Eventually she's gone about 3/4 of a full circuit of the table, and he's still limpeted to her side. She's handling it well, and I don't interfere. If she wanted help she'd ask me. His parents appear to see nothing wrong with this either, since they also do nothing.

But I suspect one reason they say nothing is because the kid's dad is too busy being brain sucked into his own cell phone. He has 2 little girls limpeted to HIS sides, so maybe this is their normal personal space parameter. Who am I to judge? Their mom is....

Ok. Their mom. She is That Woman. The Loud Talker. The Loud Talker On Her Cellphone. In a crowded waiting room. A waiting room with signs plastered everywhere saying "Please turn off your cell phones. Thank You!" She is having a conversation. We are all part of her conversation. I think the doctor in the back is part of her conversation.


She's here because she has a UTI. "A UTI!!! you know, a Urinary Tract Infection! They keep givin' me dose antee-bye-ot-ics and dat jus' gimme a yeast infection.  I keep TELLIN’ dem dey don't work none, but dey keep givin' dem ta me!!! I itch SO BAD! I went ta da circle K up on state? yeah I went ta get me some benadryl? for da Itchin'? - the bottles is too 'spensive so I went ta get me one of dem single packs? yeah! Dey was $4.49!!! I said LLAAWWWDY I ain't payin' dat! so I just gonna itch. It's like a FIRE down dere!! mmm hhmm!!"

shoot. me. now.

THE NURSE COMES OUT AND SAYS A NAME!! YAY!!! there's a visable stir!! it's Mom to Manic 3 yr old!! She heads back.

The lady On Fire is now discussing That Time With The Bed Bugs.

Demon Boy is now bored, and no longer happy. He's mad. He wants to GO!!!

The lady On Fire is now googling silver fish "cuz you 'member dat time dey sayz we gots silverfish?? what ARE silverfish anyway? I'm'a gonna google it. hang on. oh. OH MAH GAWD DEY IS NAAASTY!!! GROSSS!! WHY I DO DAT TO MAHSELF!!"

Lady On Fire's battery is dying. "i gots 2%!!" phone dies. blessed. wonderful. silence.

Then she starts talking to her kids. <sigh> OH HALLELUIA SHE'S CALLED IN NEXT!!!

silence. oh, except for the 20 other people sniffling, coughing, wheezing, and Antiques Roadshow on the television.

The nurse is back at the door asking for the family of the Mom to the Demon Boy. They take the aunt back.

Hmm....this doesn't look good.


A few minutes later the aunt comes back. Enforced intimacy of proximity - tells her husband to go out to the sister's car and get the car seat and move it to their car. Don’t know where the keys are. Why do we have to do this? What are we gonna do with him? What about the girls? And, right there, in front of the 3 year old demon child (not paying attention) and 7-year old not-quite-there girl, and 10-year-old way too grown up girl...she says "they're calling an ambulance to take her to the hospital. they think her appendix is about to burst."

The two little girls are staring at her in horror. The aunt is paying NO attention. She's arguing with her husband about car seats, and trips to school, and the kids' dad who refuses to come get them cuz they're HER kids to deal with, and work schedules, and a broken down car, and I can't miss work....and the two little girls start silently crying.  No one says "it's going to be ok. your mom is sick, but they know just what to do, and they're going to make her better."  They say, abruptly, "your mom's going to be fine." and go back to arguing.

My daughter is looking over at them, with pain on her face. She doesn't know what to say or do.

I finally tapped the middle daughter on the shoulder and motioned her over.

"Do you know what an appendix is?" says I.

Shakes her head. Looks at me only glancingly.

"It's this little piece of organ, right here in your belly" <I touch her lightly on the abdomen with one fingertip>. "Our body doesn't use it for anything, and sometimes it gets angry and makes us sick. but the doctors know how to take care of it. They will take her to the hospital and give her special medicine. Then they will probably have to give her a very simple operation. After it's all done, she will have this wicked cool little scar right about here" <touch her lightly again on her abdomen> "that she can show off."

out of the corner of my eye I can see her sister, sitting on her uncle's lap, sitting straight-backed and silent. I can tell she's listening too.

"Don't worry. It's very easy to fix. Your mom will be all right. ok?"

she nodded at me again, and walked back to her sister and leaned in to her. They whispered back and forth to each other for a few minutes, and then they both calmed down.

Eventually we got to see the doctor. we were the next to last people in the waiting room, at 10:00pm.


I hope the lady with the hot appendix is ok. I hope her daughters are ok. I hope everyone is ok. even the Lady On Fire.